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…Just looking at the everyday evidence, quite apart from all the enhancement in life’s minutest details, all the beauty noticed and so much clarity, its as though time has speeded up to a whole other pace compared to those earlier times of sludge. It moves along quite differently to those years when life was lived like a goldfish; neither bored nor surprised at seeing the same old fishtank sides and certainly never questioning why they were there. But then we are into the ninth wave now and everything is happening soooo much more quickly again, the evolutions coming thick and fast (oh, about every 36 days…) appearing as upgrades that make me feel like 6 months was another lifetime ago, so much does everything reinvent, again and again and again. Is this a trick; are we just designed to always think we see more, feel more, know more today than we did yesterday? Can I really tell all these changes happened, do trees really look any different to my eyes (perhaps it took the slow steady growth of the tree that hasn’t changed so very much…only my perception of it…to show this) and are my evolutionary spurts so much more than a “nice” academic theory? In my life, oh yes, yes they are but yesterday seemed to want to show me some particular things, just to make sure I grasped the leap that has been made; seeing even what those earlier contrasts were here to show me in their own perfect way. In short, I was given another opportunity to appraise just how beautfully designed my whole life has been and how much I have woken up, already. Though the two decades this transition has taken could feel like a very long, slow yawn, the most recent months have been like the part when you vigorously rub the sleep out of your eyes, your head clears and the room seems suddenly a-dazzle with colour and interest; and all the promise of a brand new day. Continue reading →