About

When I first set out to create a blog, in March 2011, I had just an inkling of the unique angle that I had to offer, born of my particular way of looking at things very broadly (you could say, outside of their “box”). This  instinct pushed me forward to get started on the project, even when I had so many doubts and only the vaguest idea of what I had to say.

I let go of “what do I know?” and allowed that, in my own way, I had expertise to offer; which would arise as and when it was most needed.

By then, I had been in recovery from a complicated tangle of chronic health issues for several years, after my health “crashed” in 2005. The years in-between had taken me on quite a journey or, rather as I now see it, I had taken myself on this amazing journey of self-discovery, using my health circumstances as the hand rings and foot markers to guide me along the route.

So, I wanted to write about health and wellbeing…but I didn’t want to brand myself as a “health blogger” since so much of what I had to write about extended far beyond such tight and expectation-riddled edges.

I already knew I didn’t want to set out to repeat all the, many, other blogs about learning to “live with” these so-called chronic health issues or eating/exercising/treating your way back to better health (though these aspects inevitably form part of my bigger picture). Nor did I want to peddle insincere-sounding reassurance or admiration for the long-suffering reader, to share stories of victimhood or mindsets of defeatism. In particular, I didn’t want to cultivate that air of self-congratulation or wallowing in hardships that is so often rife in health-blogging land. I was well aware that the more attached we become to our challenges, the harder they are to work through as they stick to us as part of our (business, social or even our core) identity: this was not what I was choosing for myself.

Rather, I wanted to deliver the essence of that thing, deep inside myself, that had kept me pushing forwards with unwavering optimism and almost bewildering tenacity. This “thing”, this powerful core aspect of me, has insisted upon feeling whole and intact, whatever life or my body seemed to “throw at me”, and the more I have tuned into it, the closer I have got to manifesting that reality. You see, never once did I lose this sense of “everything being all right…really” through all the dark-tunnel years of fibromyalgia, electro-sensitivity,  chronic fatigue (or whatever we choose to call these things, since labels are so very arbitrary and can be such a sticking-point to true or sustained recovery). I always sensed there was a much bigger picture emerging to the surface of my life through what presented as all these weird and wonderful health challenges and I still know I was right.

In time, the push-pull between topics led to me starting a second blog – Living Whole – dedicated to all the health-related subjects I wanted to write about; leaving me to play much more freely over here in what was now called Spinning the Light.

Here, if there is any focus at all, my aim is to encourage my readers to look at things through fresh and more broadly focussed eyes. I like to join dots; however arbitrarily…and to notice synchronicities, which can be such powerful clues along the way.

Whatever your particular “challenge”…it could be health, could be life’s so-called external circumstances such as finances, work or family issues…the raw materials that I share are so often clues to how to go about addressing any of those situations in a broader, more insightful, way that suggests to you the wonderful possibility that everything is working in your favour. I refer to them as clues because those things that feel like they are going most “wrong” with our lives often hint at ways in which we have become separate or dislodged from a fundamental aspect of self, a sort-of core truth, leaving us feeling perpetually misaligned with our own lives, going around in circles. Our journey back to the kind of wholeness that delivers greater joy, better health etc. is like a trail of breadcrumbs left by the clues of our “symptoms” as we examine them with our widest, most instinctual and lease pre-judging set of “eyes”.

A magical thing happens when we get even close to wholeness; we feel an updraft, as it were, lifting us up to a new level of experience and we become the spiral that breaks us out of the tedium of circles. Suddenly, we are viewing things from a more advantageous perspective than before and everything seems clearer, crisper and more vibrant, somehow. Without having to “solve” anything, we make better sense of some of the chaos that once bewildered us and we love ourselves more completely, less conditionally, than ever before. We can tell when we are getting there as we feel the joy build in our heart and the excitement in our gut; life starts to feel appealing again, even with all its difficulties. It’s as though nothing has changed yet everything has. It’s fascinating how better health almost always comes in this feeling’s wake; as soon as we surrender to the not-knowing part of how we got there, since this is not to do with “figuring anything out”.

screenshot2019-02-01at10.42.34When we dare to step outside of the mainstream, beyond only hearing what science has to say or what other people think is possible for us, beyond an ingrained sense that we are “small” and “know nothing”, that someone else needs to step forward and “help us”, things have this miraculous way of coming together, conspiring with us to deliver us into completely new territory, where we feel…yes…more whole than we ever did before.

I am testament to the reality that this open-hearted clue trail has led me directly to a degree of wholeness and of unconditionally blissed-out love of life that was completely unknown to me before my health supposedly “crashed”; that crash serving as the much-needed catalyst to deliver my highest and, certainly, speediest evolution…ever (out of many lifetimes of playing with, I suspect, extremely similar themes in order to become the expert of them). In fact the coming-together of many sources of greater understanding, gathered across lifetimes, converging around the pivot point of YOU, is  what a healing journey is all about. It’s as though we regather many scattered parts of ourselves; all these apparently broken aspects that we once threw out on the wind, to serve as scouts and experience-collectors, and as we piece that disparate jigsaw back together again, we realise their amalgamation (however odd its uniqueness may seem, compared to a more mainstream idea we once had) looks like the wholeness we have long searched for. This is who we are.

When you also allow that what YOU are going through is making you the absolute expert of YOUR particular circumstances, allowing you to know and own things about yourself that no other party is qualified to tell you, then you too will experience a new kind of wholeness born out of self-responsibility; that is, taking responsibility for the experiences you are having. Paired with its seeming opposite factor; that, really, we know nothing so remaining open and surrendered to all possibilities is the only way forwards, this stance becomes especially powerful…a sort of super-power. This dichotomy (I know everything…and yet I know nothing) made whole…as us…is like a giant key to the doorway of selfhood; and better health and wellbeing lie just the other side of this, already waiting for you.

An overarching desire is to be of service through the sharing of these experiences; to shine a light for others in case what I offer or play-around with might be of help in their own unique journey. Writing about my experiences is something I do for love and I spend a great deal of my time doing it, purely for that thing – love. You will find plenty of that love here and on my @living_whole_health instagram account, which is linked to material from both my blogs.

The sister blog that I mentioned, which is focussed upon health and wellbeing topics (though there are many overlaps…) is called Living Whole and I invite you to take a look; you might find it more relevant than you expected.

Some other traits that I have, which may be of common interest or curiosity, are that I am a synesthete, a diagnosed “highly sensitive person” (to the most extreme degree), an INFJ personality trait (that rarest of the rare…), I am atuned to the Ninth Wave of Creation (use search term “ninth wave” on my blog and you can read all about this unity consciousness wave of evolution across my various posts) and I have undergone an AuraTransformation™,  which is a consciousness upgrade aligned to the crystal energies (you can read my post on that here). I also believe I have had an indigo aura (prior to that upgrade) all my life, with all its inherent challenges. I underwent a spontaneous awakening “event” in March 2011, immediately prior to the creation of this blog (which, prior to that, would have been completely out of character for me to do). Its fair to say, my life changed beyond recognition from that point and it is the steady flow of insight that has since been available to me since that feeds my passion for writing.  All of these feel like key factors about me and the kind of material I share.

When I’m not writing, I’m a professional artist working in (for many years) oil on canvas and (most recently) a combination of digital methods, drawing on my expertise as a painter. My art can be seen on my primary website Helen White, ordered as art prints and, of course, you can keep track of it daily via my “other” Instagram account @helenwhiteartist.

 

Helen White 2019

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4 Responses to About

  1. Louis says:

    Helen, thank you for the pingback to my blog. It encouraged me to visit your very interesting site – I like the feel of what you are about. I particularly enjoyed your paintings and will be returning very soon to explore things further. Thanks.

    • Helen White says:

      Hi Louis, thanks and ditto with the feel of your blog – and I identify with the use of that word ‘feel’ in this context as its very much what guides me in this kid of thing! I went through loads of people’s blogs yesterday and not everything resonates but something in yours certainly did and the bit you wrote about the chair clinched it for me! Glad to hear you’re going to take another look – can I encourage you to ‘follow’ and ‘like’ things if they resonate as it can be so hard getting the regular audience and all-important feedback, as I’m sure you appreciate – its nice to feel there’s anybody ‘out there’ listening to my ramblings etc! I’m pretty sure I followed your blog yesterday…I’ll check…as I really liked the ‘feel’ and would like to see more.

  2. Emilka says:

    Hello Helen, thank you for ‘liking’ my blog! I’m just starting my blogging adventure, but fibromyalgia has been my nemesis for many years now and, like you, I’ve decided to use writing as a way of sharing and possibly connecting with others, like me. It’s great that you have found your relief in painting. For the same reason I write, cook or do furniture makeovers – as long as fibromyalgia is letting me handle power tools of course 🙂 Looking forward to read more of your posts. Please, check my recent pots about my fibro life here: https://algossite.wordpress.com/2016/05/02/fibra-myo-algos-known-to-me-as-the-unbearable-pain-of-fibers-and-muscles/

    • Helen White says:

      Thanks for getting in touch Emilka, I’m so glad to hear you are giving writing a shot as a way of processing through the territory as it has literally transformed the hardship into some of the greatest gifts imaginable for me to do this. Will definitely dip into your blog again!

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