As I wake up this morning to what I find I already knew before I opened my eyes, it seems we have chosen the route of most entropy in order to evolve. Not what so many of us wanted; not what my human self wanted, agreed. Yet, as my own “story” has taught me, sometimes complete entropy is what it takes to break down a defunct old system and rebuild it completely anew.
It took the complete destruction of everything I knew about my old world and a period when virtually nothing seemed to “work” for me to get to where I am today…better than I’ve ever been…and I suspect that’s what we need as a planet, going forward. The other route might have been gentler but it might not have been wholesale or quick. This route will shake everything up, will seem even more divisive before it brings things closer together, there will be dark-seeming days ahead and yet…I can vouch…when no stone is left unturned (because we are forced to scrutinise absolutely everything) we do a very thorough job of evolving. I did. And it hurt. At times, it felt utterly hopeless and I lost the will to keep going for short periods of time. But what came out of it is remarkable; I wouldn’t swop my new version for any rewrite of the story that got me here; and so many of us have done this lately….and now we get to do it together as a planet (we are already doing it). By now, we really know the ropes, don’t we?
You may wonder at the words “we” chose entropy when, actually, most of us didn’t vote for this…and yet, at some level, we all did. At the soul level, we all signed up for this outcome, you can be quite sure of that since it happened; and this tells me we know we are ready for a major shakeup and that excites me more than terrorising me for being such an affirmation of how ready we are. We are big enough, conscious enough – now – to get this thing on the road and really shake up all our world systems from the roots. Maybe we really need to see just how abhorrent they really are, in action, so we can say we don’t accept those ways any more; there can be no apathy faced with such extremes in action. And, you know, it takes looking at that thing you fear the most right in the eyes in order to dissolve it, which is what we are doing as we read the headlines this morning yet are we melting into a puddle of fear or are we still here and feeling stronger than ever? We could have gone the nicer route towards our own evolution and yet all those hidden grudges, prejudices and festering wounds that this administration will, no doubt, bring right up to the surface would have just stayed there simmering under the skin. Like any septic boil, you’ve got to get them right up into the light to heal them properly so they don’t keep coming back and we’re going to do that thing, blasting this world with the kind of people power and overwhelming love that gets into all the dark corners; there is no other way to completely reinvent a paradigm and heal all that we are putting behind us once and for all. Its the elephant we can’t just keep stepping over if we want to clear a space in the room.
I’ve written such a lot about “rebalancing” lately; about the yin and the yang, the left and the right, the sacred feminine and masculine…well here’s when we finally get that thing out of the garage and onto the road. This year, my symbol for the total merger of these two aspects until they take flight together is the swan. It’s an ancient symbol, one understood very deeply by some very plugged-in people who read the stars and revered Cygnus as a token of unity and rebirth…one completely different age birthed out of another, which can be a logic defying thing to witness (like a caterpillar transformed into a butterfly) and yet its just so powerful when it does. It’s such a rare thing to see a swan in flight but when you do…oh how blessed, if a little startled, do you feel! Well, I’ve just finished a deeply symbolic painting of a swan and have another in the pipeline yet the one that came through very strongly wanting to be realised, yesterday, was the idea of a swan with wings outstretched ready to fly and I spent the whole of yesterday evening, while Americans voted, preparing this idea for canvas. By strange coincidence, yesterday morning a leaf dropped from my guttering and was hanging in front of my bedroom window against the blue sky as I lay in bed and, dangling from a tiny spider’s thread, looked exactly like a swan gliding back and forth with wings slightly crooked as though getting ready to fly. This morning, that same leaf was still there yet its movements were frenzied in the wind and rain, like she was flying through turbulence, bashed hither and thither; yet still she hung on and would not be taken down. Watching this against the black-clouded sky, I found I already knew the outcome of this morning’s news even before I “switched on” yet we, too, will survive the turbulence. More importantly, what we are creating together will still prove strong enough to take flight and it will get easier (just as the sun is now out again through my window).
The graceful bird that incorporates the very best of left or right, yin and yang, female and male will birth out of all this and will get to fly sooner than we know. Together, we will come to see how divisiveness serves no one and we will be all the stronger for the way that we came to know this once and for all. These are my predictions and, while I always leave room for surprise, somehow I know we are headed for far better times than we think, sooner than we think. I’ve seen this happen before, risen out of what feels like wholesale destruction of all that felt important only to have to completely reinvent those definitions after seeing how small they really were…for we are bigger, more graceful, more unified than we know and there are far grander projects up our sleeves for how we intend to transform this planet…together. If you allow yourself to tune in, your higher self knows this already and remains bizarrely serene at today’s news; so I suggest you go meet her there and make that your hang-out, finding others who share your optimism and vision and feeding that intention. In the meantime, please excuse me as I have a powerful new painting to get started on and, through it, shift myself into the reality where that flight is more than imminent (remembering, we manifest what we focus on). This is where we continue to cast our vote daily…with every thought we have.