Lifting the lid

Jan sky 2Today, I finally lifted the lid – in other words, I got back to my paints!  I’d been driving myself bananas by putting it off so long but it also felt so auspicious after such a long break that I’d begun to feel a bit anxious, as though I’d have forgotten how to use a brush. It took the best part of the day to get other ‘important’ things done (or was I just making excuses…) and do all the necessary prep, including priming the canvas and deciding what to paint…But once I’d made that first mark of white against black gesso, that same old indescribable feeling – something like warm syrup in the chest area… or the first heart-pound of love… or an electric thrill of excitement… or sheer overwhelming joy… (but basically far too hard to pin down in words) began to take me over and I was all smiles again, wondering just what had taken me so long!

Jan sky 1

And like a perfectly-timed mirror of what was going on with me, the low January sun suddenly appeared in the nook between two buildings and lit up the room with the most amazing amber light, casting rainbow-reflections around the room off the sides of the mirror over the fireplace and silver-lining the gargantuan cloud outside the window. The few minutes of incredible radiance pouring over the newly-started canvas felt like the most perfect sign that harmony was fully restored now that I have a brush back in my hand.

Excited to continue tomorrow…

About Helen White

Helen White is a professional artist and published writer with two primary blogs to her name. Her themes pivot around health and wellbeing, expanded consciousness and ways of noticing how life is a constant dance between the deeply subjective and the collective-universal, all of which she explores with a daily hunger to get to know herself better. Her blog Living Whole shines a light on living with high sensitivity, dealing with trauma and healing from chronic health issues. Spinning the Light is an extremely broad-based platform where she elucidates the everyday alchemy of relentless self-exploration. A lifetime of "feeling like an outsider" slowly emerged as neurodivergence (being a Highly Sensitive Person with ADHD, synaesthesia, sensory processing challenges and other defecits overlapping with giftedness). All of these topics are covered in her blogs, written from two distinct vantage points so, if you have enjoyed one of them, you may wish to explore the other for a different, yet entirely complimentary, perspective.
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